Digestible Terms

Why is it that the term Wiccan is more accepted then the term Pagan?
You tell someone you are pagan and they turn away.  You tell them you are wiccan and they grin and keep talking.  
I don't get it.   What makes being Wiccan more publicly digestible then being Pagan?


On the same vein, I visited this great blog just after Easter.  Someone who I had been following for months, who had been following me, and I replied to their post.   They were very out right Christians, who in their own comments used the word God to describe their destiny.  Which they have every right to do.   I was very much agreeing with the theme of their post, and commented.  I used the term Universe an not God.   Still being respectful without tipping on that I am Pagan, as I have not said so on that network. The comment never got published. As far as I know it either got deleted or is still in wait.   She has removed herself from my follow list, has not returned any comments lately and I know she blogged yesterday as I still follow her blog.    And yes it's a mommy blog, but a really great one.

(well I just used the term Wiccan today on another blog comment in that network so we'll see what reactions I get)

So I had this vision

Over a year ago I had a vision. I was in a parking lot with friends and at the end of the lot was the back of a building.  A group of men were standing at a door of this building, and I could only see one of them, the others were blocked by my friends.  One of my friends in this vision said to me point blank "it's ----- it's always been him."  We were standing beside an old red truck from the 1940's.
I had talked to my friend a few days after that vision and he laughed saying he did indeed own a red truck but it was very modern.  But the second I told him about the guy he said "I know, but I am not allowed to tell you what I know."  He is a Wiccan who has been studying astral energy working for the last few years.

About a month later, I had another vision. I was at an event and one of my favourite celebrities walked up in this vision, and I asked for a photo. In this vision it was more the feeling then the images that stood out.  The feeling of comfort, like it was more then just a fan photo but a friendship. 
I told my friend the High Priestess about this one, and she said the man's name before I was finished telling it.  Before I got to the part of him even walking up to me in the vision.  Her reply was "I got a chill at the image of him. He's the One."  She's never been wrong with her predictions.

I just had a dream, where a group of guys were talking and doing an interview, and the celebrity walked up to disrupt everything.  He was dressed in black and simply said "Why are you so shocked?" The feeling from the dream was the same as the vision I had the first time with the red truck.

When I watch this celebrity do interviews, I have this overwhelming feeling that he's suppose to be my best friend.  Crazy, maybe but true.  I get a comforting feeling from his voice and an extreme familiarness from him. 
Am I loosing it, or is there something else that I need to pay attention to?

Do you have a kitchen alter?

I'm asking because I am needing to create one and am totally unsure of ideas.

I asked the advice of my friend the High Priestess, but her advice was "what speaks to you".
Well, that's the issue, what speaks to me is a mass of confusion. My gut reaction is to go with a goddess who has nothing to do with being domestic or food.

That is another issue, I do not usually connect with goddesses; I seem to connect with gods.

Kitchen Deities, icons, alters. Does anyone have any thoughts?

When the music's over

Quoting the Doors for that title.

The universe has been pushing me in one direction now for the last few years, to only hit me with a the largest brick wall ever.  
I found out some information today that has shattered a possible path in my life.  I have to ask, why would the Gods/Goddesses lead me down this path in this southward direction to suddenly lock the door in my face?
What was the point of leading me on only to say "nope sorry not for you" ?   I am left with nothing but having to turn back northward and start over. 
No I am not going to explain what the situation was.  Just putting out the question, why would the universe direct you one way when that direction was just not for you to begin with?

My intuition has ring rust

I've made it no secret that I like my men like I like my tag teams Young and from Detriot.
I've also said a million times I prefer guys with pale skin, around my height, short dark spiky hair and brown eyes.
Of course there are no guys in this city that are anywhere near single, straight and my type.

So here I was sitting in my pajamas, not showered for the last two days, had not brushed my teeth or anything having a coffee when there was a knock on my door. I opened it thinking it was the landlord coming for rent.
What I found standing there was someone from city hydro to let us know that the new hydro meters were in effect. He had pale skin, was around my height, with short dark spiky hair and chocolate brown eyes.

Oh my god!

I had been having odd vibes this morning of something going to happen. I just put it off to being nervous about the fact my editor is ripping apart my novel. I paid no attention to the vibes. I wish I had, cause I would have at lest brushed my teeth.
I had heard the landlord's daughter in the hall talking to someone, but I figured it was the downstairs neighbour.

Anyway, the hydro rep asked to come in, which is something I never do. No one gets in my apartment, so why the hell did I let him in? Not too sure. He went to sit on my sofa and was drawing attention to his hair. Yes his hair. Within the first minute he made two references to his hair, and started to ask if I had kids. I said no, then he started to talk about his daughter. Then made the comment about how he got into the building, which was the landlord letting him in and dropped the comment that he's got to come back later to talk to the landlord and his daughter again.

That confused me. What does that have to do with me?

Wait it gets weirder.
He asked if I had ever been to Ottawa. No why? That's where he's from. And then went into a long description of the city. I wanted to ask if he was a tour guide or something but did not. Just kept looking at his eyes. But the really odd part, he moved closer to me, to go over the new bill and contract.

Why didn't he just hand it to me? No clue.

Was this something or just a really good sales man?

So my intuition is really messed up. What were the vibes this morning really telling me?

Where is your Devotion?

Originally posted on my main blog on Feb 10th 2010

I rented a movie last night from iTunes Canada, Mistress of Spices. They had a bunch of romantic movies on special because of this weekend being Valentines.

Mistress of Spices is about a woman who has learned the art of herbs and their healing properties. When she meets a man who she falls in love with, she is forced to choose between her life so far and what he represents.

Of course I cried through the whole movie.

You realize right off the bat that the spices are her religion. It's where her faith lays. I think I cried as much for the love story part as I did for the realization that I have no such devotion.
I never have.
For me, the only thing that would come even sort of close would be writing. But still, there has not been one thing I have devoted myself to with such comfort and strength as the character in this story has. Yes it was one of those movies that makes you stop and think and check in with your soul. I hate it when that happens. I signed up for a sweet little romance with a for sure happy ending, instead I ended up with spiritual gut check.

There is a scene in this film where the lead character is in her shop praying in front of her alter asking the spices for advice. That nailed me to the quick. I have been Pagan now for 22 years, and have studied different spiritual paths just enough to be able to blend together my own path.
But, nothing over the years have given me anything solid that I feel I belong to.

Follow me.

I have never given myself over in total devotion to any one path. I find it simply fascinating when other people do, no matter what religion or spiritual path they follow.
When I meet people who are devoted wholly to something, I am always left in awe and wishing I could be that way.

This movie in very much in line with other magick-food movies like; Like Water for Chocolate, Simply Irresistible, Chocolat, Ramen Girl and Woman on Top. Which I have to say, above all are my favourite genre films. Movies that mix cooking with magick. Cause in the end, that's all it is really, recipes and spells are the same thing. It's what you put into them when making them that counts.

Empowering Your Life with Wicca by Sirona Knight

I've had this one for a few years now, and have to admit, at first I didn't much care for it.
But, over the course of the last year, since working with other venues of the Law of Attraction, I have found myself coming back to this one.

I am a firm believer in things coming into your life when you need it most. I am starting to think this book came to me a bit earlier then I was truly ready for it.

This volume will walk you through identifying your goals, planning how to make them real and the actual manifestation of them.

It has a little more punch then just the Law of Attraction, and does keep to the Wiccan religion.